Stand By Me

I recently watched the movie ‘Stand By Me’. It’s a story of friendship, adventure and life. One of the last lines in the movie really struck a chord with me, though. It was something like “I don’t have friends like I had when I was 12. But then again, who does?” As of lately, friendship has been a sensitive subject to me. See, I just moved to Portland about 4 months ago. I was so excited because my best friend lives here and we’ve been apart for nearly 5 years; only visiting a few times a year for short periods of time.

When we were little, we were inseparable. We did everything together. And even when I felt like I had nobody, I felt like I at least had her. Well, since I’ve been in Portland, things don’t seem that way anymore. Don’t get me wrong, we probably get together a couple times a month but she’s not the same person she used to be. She’s more brazen and outspoken, almost to the point of it making me feel uncomfortable. She has new friends like this. And I get the vibe that her new friends don’t really like me, because I’m so not brazen and in your face. With her and her friends, its like an episode of Sex & The City, and I don’t fit in at all. I’m a little more reserved and I’m not interested in discussing women’s rights or having deep conversations, while drinking two bottles of wine back to back. I am a chill, relax, joke around, take nothing too seriously, sippin’ on some whisky and chasing it with a beer kind of gal.

Despite that, I try to go along, get along cause that’s just who I am. No drama. However, I’ve noticed lately that my friend, doesn’t seem like she cares anymore. When I text her, she’ll text me back something that doesn’t even make sense. For example – I texted her about having a cold and how it was kicking my butt and she wrote back “well that’s good, hope you feel better real soon”. What about me being sick is good? It was like she didn’t care or didn’t even read the text. I don’t often text her about stuff like that but her response just seemed so weird. It made me feel stupid. What did I do? Why does my friend seem uncaring or even annoyed?

Before this happened, I mentioned to my boyfriend that I felt like she was different and that I felt like she has more fun with her other friends than me. So whole thing didn’t really surprise me, but it still sucks that the one person I used to be so close with, is the person that I’m least close with now. How does that happen?

Any advice folks?


The Sweetest Love

Well, I did it.

I live in Portland in a beautiful high rise apartment with a gorgeous view of the city skyline. I have a job I love and that I may actually be good at. The best part is that its a job that actually pertains to the career path I want. I’m a pastry tech at Papa Haydn and so far, I love it. I’m working 4-5 days a week so far, and I’m hungry for more! I applied for a part time job at this incredible market down the street from my apartment, to make as much money as I can till I start school, which will hopefully be in January of next year… Everything seems to be working for me lately. Yes!!

Not to mention, I’m here with the love of my life, Nate. He’s really been great and he’s loving Portland too. I think we’re exactly where we’re supposed to be! I’m constantly counting my blessings and thanking God that this is my life.

My life is so much more eventful too. We’re constantly out and about, checking out local farmers markets as well as flee markets. Gorgeous parks and historic buildings to check out. This place is beautiful and I wonder why I never came sooner. I reckon I was waiting… waiting for the stars to align and make this dream possible. I’ve got the job, the gorgeous home and the sweetest love. What more could a girl ask for?

Listening to: Sam Smith “I’m Not The Only One”

Keep Up The Good Work!

The last few days have been pretty great. Didn’t have to work at all, which is nice. I had plenty of stuff to keep my mind occupied though. I’ve been on a healthy kick lately and am doing fairly well. I’ve already lost 6 pounds in a little less than two weeks. It hasn’t been that difficult either. I’ve been drinking a lot more water to start, and as much as it sounds crazy, counting calories works for me! I don’t think I realized how many calories I was consuming before I started this… we’ll call it, “new way of life” rather than diet. Besides watching what I eat, I’ve been exercising a bit more. I’m sore everyday but I know if I continue, it shouldn’t continue. Anyways – I’m using this app on my phone called ‘MyFitnessPal’. It has been a big help. All in all, I’ve got a great start and I’ll post more results when they’re significant. Wish me luck!

I’ve got to work tonight which will be a little off since I’ve had three days off. I’m sure I’ll survive. I just have to get through tonight and tomorrow and then the rest of my week is easy. Sunday is going to be fun; I’m planning on cooking dinner and watching Star Wars for ‘May the 4th be with you” 😀 Can’t wait! Aside from that and Cinco De Mayo coming up, something else special is coming…


I’m not really planning much, seeing as we’re trying to save money for our move, but I think we might do some bowling or mini golf followed by dinner. After the first 25, birthdays kind of lost their luster, lol. Oh well. Happy Birthday anyway!

Hope everyone in the world is well. Love & Peace.

I’m back

I’m back and better than ever. For awhile there, I was a little derailed and lost. Now things are great and all falling into place. Hope the rest of the world has been well. I feel like I haven’t written in quite awhile. I suppose I felt as if I had nothing to say… or rather, everything I had to say was really lame lol. Anyways, lets move on.

So far 2013 has been a great year! And even the end of last year things started going my way. I got to go to Los Angeles twice last year; to visit my parents. Technically they live in Santa Maria but we flew into LA. I got to see so many things I’d only ever seen on tv 🙂 It was a dream come true. We went to Universal Studios for the day, and did the tour of the lot as well as ride some of the insane rides (Transformers was nuts)!! After we did that we got to walk Venice Beach and check out the all the cool boutiques as well as do some serious people watching lol. We went to a beach called Oceana, closer to my parents house. I rented a 4 wheeler for an hour and my mom and I rode it down the beach while the rest of my family watched. Lastly, I got to meet my half sister for the first time, as well as my niece and brother in law; and they’re all wonderful. All in all, it was a blast! I’ll never forget it.

I haven’t done a whole lot of traveling this year, except for minor trips like camping. We’ve been saving our money because in less than three months, we’re moving to Portland, Oregon! I’m so stoked! We have a lot to do before we go. Lots of packing and down-sizing but it’ll be worth it. I’m just so thankful I found someone who loves me enough to do this with me. I’m very lucky, I finally found my man.

Moving to a new city is going to be an eye-opening experience, I’m sure. Regardless, I have this feeling that I’ll thrive. I’m very optimistic for the future and I’m glad that I’m finally moving for something smart, like education, not just because. I’ve decided to attend Oregon Culinary Institute in the fall for a baking and pastry diploma, as well as classes at two local sketch comedy/improve theaters which is what I really want. So glad I finally found a place to work on my craft 😉

So as you can see, I’m well and the future seems bright and hopeful. Not only am I taking steps towards a better life, I’m learning a lot about myself, and I’m taking better care of myself for sure. In two months time, all my dental work will be complete and then I can get Invisalign started 😀 which is what I’ve wanted since I can remember. I’m also losing weight and exercising more as well as eating a lot less sugar; it feels great to be in charge of me again. Which reminds me, I’m going to start using this journal sort of as my weight loss journal. So if you don’t want to read it, skip it, cause I know it wont be very interesting.

Anyway, hope everyone is well! Peace & love